Butterflies

by Filip Oscar

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1.
03:34
Let's make the time, to wash each other of the dirt that is in us Destitute and wet, the surface of our skin is starting to glow red When the sun is ready to burn out and all the heat has gone in me The jetted moment will end with something beautiful for all to see You; know; I; that I can't go away I can't seem to sleep, I'm messed up with anxiety and it kills me As crazy as it sounds, I'm waiting for the ice queen to melt down
2.
04:34
Tear down the blinds of your mind Once you're out of anomie and clout I'm sorry, but it's been too long, I'd rather disappear Elevate yourself but don't lose discipline I cannot force myself to smile when twisted up I'm sorry, I don't want distrust, I'd rather disappear into wanderlust Losing count of all the times I sat and spent an hour I don't want to dwell upon it but you just make me mad I'm sorry, I don't want distrust, I'd rather disappear into wanderlust
3.
06:07
You want to drift away (x4) Drift away (x4) (Instrumental) Wake my insides, ignite your green eyes I was taken away to the last place on earth You can stop me shivering with your one eyed blink and keep me breathing when we're fading out (OOoooohh's) Bloody tide let down and cannot move into reverie of red and black Edwin could be me or even you, well it's me, yes I'm him, now you know that it's me Standing out in the fall you made me faint Suddenly I had realised how to feel Now that I have come out of my shell There are no more jitters to twist my words (Guitar build-up) Now that I've made you immortal, you are no longer a blood doll The lust as you're pushed by the hunger, come and we'll prey on the wight
4.
03:34
Burying eyes with the wave of your hand Is to make one at peace with earth To push or ignore with a dishonest smile Shows an opposite side to you This life is a dream, surpress yourself Just rip off your clothes, to see and believe You're looking pale You're reaching out (x2) Tasteless and crazy This life all around (x2) The edge of contempt is the edge of a blade To manage yourself inside Forget all that's said and believe all you read You're sinking beneath the bed The sight of some hope, really exist You're trying to move, your legs and your arms You're looking pale You're reaching out (x2) Tasteless and crazy This life all around (x2)
5.
An imaginary depressive demure and itching to forget That I'm just up and down with the varying notes of my voice Fall back from the dizzying heights Fall back from the dizzying heights Picked up by the treads of my crack boots as I come home and crash into the gates but it's spewed out on the rubble and stepped on every day as I walk out of my front door This is the price to have your roots poisoned by your guilty hands Whilst the lines on your lips stay moist with your drool and vicious stare Fall back from the dizzying heights Fall back from the dizzying heights Break sweat and break off all ties and put your arms around me as enslaving chaos held together by both sides of you and this spit can wash dirt down the plug hole to the patriarch of us
6.
02:53
I met you in the garden Slumped laying down right beside you You stared me down with the craziest smile and told me that I was your king I felt you dig inside me like twelve volts are drilling through my chest You pulled me to the back of your mind where we'd be in equanimity I remarked that I wasn't conscious and my acumen was not in check Frightened that this might be a hornet's nest and I suspected that you were the queen
7.
Pins and stencils All go in a pot to keep Tiny worms Picked out from your ears Living on a patch of hail Whilst scratching at the choking grass Pushing, crushing Crumbling from a muddy trip Painful baggage Dripping from a horror shower (and) (Dream poetry) We didn't want to open our mouths to see if we could still breathe, but we did, and it was inevitable. We started gently lifting off away from the surface as the vacuum took us, becoming further pressured, ice cold, with our arms around each other, eyes closed, we froze together in space. I woke up. A harrow spell The tender love of peaceful owls The starting ticks While I sit idly by And fall out of this world And fall out of this world
8.
03:35
So you may think this turns An awkward angle, bent in shape The busy mind of a deep soul Is the lazy mind of beauty But of all the time in the world We can't escape the distance Onto the ground where you'd stare If your fingers could spark the air It would create a honeycomb And pour out the purest springs With sight I'm sold by your eyes And stuck around your arms and thighs The buzz from breathing in Self-suffering euphoria
9.
Cold ripped acid tense and tired Damaged written and with absolute power Burning trails of governed people You know you have been trying too hard Weathered abused surface like red eyes but not something that can be removed Pour hard shells and contradict again and again these words are a kind of sickness Crazy burnt adolescence with words, blackouts in heaven My head was brought to a stand still One day maybe today self seeding Reinsert without self loathing I've gone way past what I have dressed up and (x3) I've gone way past what I have been dressed up in what I have been dressed up in (x3)
10.
04:04
Faster than your life Free will Leave us ill and hollow One day it will be Different for the rest More lost than their lost You're a missing person Clean up the woods Scout the hills and wilds Never to be found Maybe I am one of them Mortified and bashful Silly unmistake Different way to rest Your profound judgment Made me shake and move I only think of you When I'm scared to hell It hits me like a gun When I see your face Alt. Verse Out to the sky Out to the heavens Scout the hills and wilds Never to be found
11.
05:27
Lay listening to the touch of voice by your face, and You can't stay without your golden crown That's not even yours, Placed without a care Sing lightly to the sound of love by your heart, and You can't stay without your diamond ring That's not even yours, Placed without a care I wont give in to this magic hurt Cut off your ribbon tail and fly Free one only for the kingdom to re-live, she'll thrive, gladly guard and save; the honest type No one ever feared, No one ever saw Sweet lies are told by the sweetest eyes I've ever seen, then All your luck went down when the poor old witch Took the crown from you, Snatched it from your head I wont give in to this magic hurt Cut off your ribbon tail and fly
12.
I jumped into a hole in the ground the biggest hole I've ever seen straight after cutting into stone It felt prodigious to be sucked into wishing to be free waiting for a new excuse to open up and scream How can you miss out on the chance to fall into your lovers arms, and break through the frozen ice above your head, I don't know Dark gathering clouds above you emaciated will and empty tears after reading empty words You attenuate my placid eyes you burn away the edges of my lips to draw my portrait into rust
13.
03:05
I'm woken with a pinch to the skin With dry eyes and morning hair The first thought is always the same How will I pass the day away The constant anxiety And irrationality can seem To push mixed episodes in me A certain slightly stupid girl I don't want to make you worry now Stuck with inadaquate use of tongue Neurotic superego pushing inside Until I've bowled down the highway (Feeling you, feeling me, feeling new)
14.
04:04
Silence reads off emptyness Stay awake and work on readyness It's not ok to leave it far behind Coz it will be swept by winter rain Where's the covent warmth before Lost to nature's withered heart Cloudy for a thousand days Feel the breeze as if it's freezing you It's not ok to leave it far behind Coz it will be swept by winter rain (Chorus then Outro)
15.
04:01
I'm not sending letters to you, takes up too much of my time to explain what had gone wrong You'll see that all you need to do is come down on your motorcycle bike, strapped in leather clothes Strangely you stare blankly at me, your breath is freezing my eyes Do you want to know where I went? can you bear to hear? it's somewhere you can't see Soft, warm and innocently crawling without stress, a world where I feel free Strangely you stare blankly at me, your breath is freezing my eyes Cinnamon and bread, Tangleheart and doubt, loose screws in my head are quietly falling out You saw my wilted rose and frown and couldn't keep it in, I've never felt ok I dont think it's possible to see past this inbalance of my mind, please don't carry on Strangely you stare blankly at me, your breath is freezing my eyelids shut Cinnamon and bread, Tangleheart and doubt, loose screws in my head are quietly falling out
16.
03:43
Cooked alive, gas mark death Devil's horn stuck in your head Eyeliner and painted nails This is how you got your name (Main Chorus) You'd rather wish yourself away Make all the others pay Look at me I'm lifeless Touch me all you want Paper thin with ice cold bones All because you hardly eat Bloody burnt beneath your will You've spent too many times with me It's so easy to breathe lies To latch on to an easy soul (Outro) You'd rather wish yourself away Make all the others pay You'd rather wish yourself away Make all the others pay
17.
03:28
Breathing in I thought I heard a rhyme Maybe all I heard was in my head Glowing yellow eyes, momentary blissful Clinging on till life clings onto you Waiting long enough till you drop dead Startling to discover such beautiful Feelings afterwards and snowfall hearts Half the sun off the sky Hold our burning hands and off we dive
18.
I found a late winner It's not a repeat I wouldn't spend myself This is not, this is not my This is not my place Blew open and whistled Free clinging on edges She has only been that way, where This is not, this is not my This is not my place (Main Chorus) Where I can feel anything real Where I can be all who I want to x2 Endless aiming, with bad habits Please don't bend with closed arms Mourning endlessly relentless Just be glad that this is not real Reading from burnt papers They've come from your heart You know you'll stay around, where This is our, this is our own This is our own place (Back to main chorus then outro)
19.
03:25

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A diary of acoustic songs that I wrote from 2005-08-02 through to 2009-11-30. I suggest listening to it by a fireplace, with a cup of tea in hand.
Don't feel pulled at the side of my shoulder, leaves fly burning and crumbling in fire. Feeling apart from a life that I felt so a part of, reading forgotten stories with no one to read to. This is not our time, Fairlight shines on you.

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released October 21, 2013

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Filip Oscar Colchester, UK

Pawel "FILIP OSCAR" Osmolski (born May 12, 1983) is an English composer, singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist.

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